So, a new year is upon us once again…
For some, it seems just like pure relief to say goodbye to 2020. For others, there’s gratitude for 2020 in that we’ve now seen what isn’t really working for us in our lives, and we’re thankful to have been kinda forced to see it. What about you? How do you feel about 2020? Are you ready to embrace 2021? Find this post on FB + IG and share a picture or GIF-comment that sums up 2020 for you! Or maybe of what you’re hoping for in 2021. I’d love to hear from you. What are you all hoping + dreaming of for 2021?
I’m one of the grateful ones for 2020 although it was a difficult year. Not that covid and people getting sick/ dying is something I’d advocate for, so please don’t misinterpret me. But, I’m grateful for the forced time I was made to take. Without that forced time, I wouldn’t have seen all that I don’t agree with… cannot stand for anymore… the unfairness, unjustness, inequality just simply in our health field let alone in the world. I’m grateful for the much-needed time I got to be in nature and to care for myself. I put that time to use to heal old wounds and to make a grand pivot where I severed ties with what was no longer serving me and what I couldn’t stand for anymore in my prior career. I meditated, did yoga, walked daily in Wakamow through the sunburns to windburns to frostbite, launched this new career, took up-teen courses to become a Certified coach, expand on my energetic skills, and help clients on their journey to wellness as I was doing the same for myself.
All that time showed me where I lived in survival mode, where I was starved of joy + purpose, overwhelmed, drained + exhausted, feeling stuck, getting caught in analyzing instead of following my intuition… where I needed more boundaries, where I allowed my comfort zone to hold me back, where I was bored with the monotony of life, where I was overly concerned with others’ opinions and looking for external validation, where I felt a bit lost + alone + out of place, where I didn’t feel worthy + deserving of the magic I created for myself, where I was chasing that illusion of perfectionism, where I doubted my own abilities + resilience, and most of all I saw how fucking tired I am of ego, superficiality, disingenuous, and inauthentic people + ideals seemingly winning in this world. So, I severed ties with all that. All. of. it.
As I flipped through my 2020 day-planner, I quickly saw how I was able to attend a life-changing conference in Vancouver just before covid really took hold. After less than 2 weeks of returning to work, Within Physical Therapy was forced to close on March 18th. By early April I signed up to do several courses + workshops aiding myself + others using meditation + energetics to heal. I signed up to do further work so I could become a Training in Power teacher. Right after I celebrated my 38th birthday, I knew I had to close Within Physical Therapy permanently. All my healing work led me to this decision and I know, for me, it was and is 100% what I needed to do.
Within 10 days everything Within Physical Therapy was done and gone. The business I built by myself. Myself. And made a roaring success with the people of Moose Jaw and their word-of-mouth. Gone within 10 days. 7 years. Gone within 10 days. While I missed my dream clients, I knew it was what was right for me, and so I plugged away at launching my new venture – Step Within. June, July, August, and September were a blur of courses and working passionately on my new career.
Step Within launched October 1st. Within days of launching Step Within I had the idea + vision to launch a second business that you all will get to hear about soon. It’s all part of the grand plan the universe had for me had I tuned to it. And, boy oh boy, did I tune to it and allowed it to drive. I made a conscious choice to just buckle my seat belt and see where the road took me. And I cannot wait to unveil it all to you. November + December was a continued blur of courses + bringing this second business to life. I hoe you all get to see it soon. I envisioned it being unveiled in the very fresh new year, so I’m holding for that.
And dare I say, I actually really really really enjoyed the quiet Christmas. I did not miss travelling all over to try to see everyone in a scrunched timeframe. I enjoyed time with my husband, my mom, my dog, and myself. I missed seeing my sister in Florida, but I otherwise enjoyed the calm + ease of the forced quietness. Zoom or Facetime or voice texts were otherwise enough for me to connect with those outside my very inner circle.
So, that’s my story of gratitude for 2020. You see, without 2020 and the forced time, I would’ve never slowed down enough to see through a new lens. I started to just peek out this new lens, and the Universe said I See You, and gave me gift after gift… gifts that’ll keep on coming throughout 2021. I just know it.
What’s your story? Reach out to me. I’d love to hear from you.